Being that I am a great believer of the above mentioned title, I choose firmly to believe that the Universe will provide for me, and so I refuse to work at things which I feel are crushing my soul in general.

However, seeing that I am ape-shit broke my belief is starting to slowly wobble like jello. I don’t think I’ve ever been in such a situation. I’m actually starting to worry. And I never worry about money. Somehow it always comes at the right time.

Now, my only explanation for this is that I’m not sure what I want to do. I love acting but being in continuous mind-numbing Malaysian Drama’s is slowly wearing me out. Not that there’s anything wrong with it, but it’s become such a business that it’s tiring and no longer ’stirring’ as it used to be.

Also it’s no longer fun.

There are still many Malaysian directors I’d love to work with, but seeing that the economic plunge is slowly causing wide spread panic, not many dramas/movies are being made – or at least not many that I know of or can be in.

Anyway, the other current project I wanted to work on was something I call The Artful. A sort of blog/art getaway for anything creative and artistic. However my recent foray in the internet world has proved how lowly my internetting skills are. So in a dejected huff, I am sort of shelving The Artful till I gain my internet confidence.

Also may or may not be working with Dave in creating and producing content for various sorts of things that his company needs and does. Wow. That was descriptive and clear. The may or may not depends largely on one point which is: How lazy I am. Or rather how hard-working I am.

It may seem that I am doing a gazillion things at once, but that is just a nifty little cover up to how incredibly lazy I am.

Other than that, college load is massive this semester and having not one but two anal lecturers breathing down your throat and trying to punish you for joining the class late (not very professional I might add) is not very conducive for skipping class to go for shoots (even if I always talk to the lecturer before I miss class).

In other words, I just want to sit at home and watch all the movies I’ve downloaded / bought / borrowed while stuffing my face with chocolate M&Ms. So you see, money can’t come if I’m not actually working. I’m sure the Universe is trying to provide, but having a bag of money just drop from the ceiling would surely be too much for even the Universe (right?).

I can’t seem to make up my mind on what I want to do. I hate being in limbo like this. It confuses me and makes me want to watch sad/happy movies like Slumdog Millionaire (yes, yes I cried like a big baby child). It also made me go: “Oh my god! It’s Anwar from Skins!! Putting on a fake Indian accent!!!”

Skins if you don’t know is a British drama series about a bunch of young kids running around doing drugs, drinking, having sex, being in relationships and other general stuff kids these days do daily. I secretly love the show (not so secret now eh?) and think back fondly of my younger years. Ok, I lie. I was never that cool (not that drinking or doing drugs is cool. No, no, no!)

Oh and here’s a bit of advice from your Aunt Honey: Always wear a condom kids!

*Ok, public service announcement : Check!

Anyway I digress, back to my misraeble, can’t-decide-what-I-want-do life. I’d like to do something that pays me enough to live comfortably every month, lets me go to college and other activities (they’re teaching Indian classical dance in KLPAC now and I’m just dying to join the classes) and that I enjoy doing (actually that should be on the top of the list). Oh and will not judge me if I put on a few pounds. I hate it when I go for shoots and directors go, “Uh, looking a little chubby on screen eh?” Grr! Leave me alone!! *chomp chomp on M&Ms*

Anyway, here are some pictures of how I currently look like. If you have anything for me to do: acting, hosting, anything art related bla, bla, contact me.

ok ta.. oh and GONG XI FATT CHAI!! May the blue / red bird of happiness shit on your filthy head yay!

I know I’ve been avoiding the blog. There’s just been so much happening! I can’t imagine where to start writing.

Before I start anything though:

Happy 2009!

Lots of love and blessings!

Last year was such a fabulous year. It’s easy to forget and not be grateful for things. That’s why for new year’s eve, I had a gratitude/manifestation meditation. It felt a whole lot better than being out getting sloshed (especially in the morning!) and we could see all the fireworks go off from my balcony. It was funny because none of them were synchronised so they all went off at different times at different places, which made the experience more interesting for us!

The next post I’ll show you how to make a gratitude booklet. It’s really simple and you’ll get loads out of it!

And now I have to have a shower! Night night!

x

I’ve gone for a few workshops and sessions at Lightworks before and have always gotten good results. Sometimes effects aren’t visible immediately but require some thought and consciousness but they’re always there – if you’re looking out for them. Sometimes you can feel an immediate difference, especially in the healing sessions.

That’s why I’m excited about this upcoming workshop happening this Saturday at Lightworks. I was told the Yogi Sri Jnanadev has an amazing energy about him. I’ll go just to be in that energy. The effect of such high vibrational energy can last for days and can help bring a lot of issues to the surface.

Some Yoga Sadhanas spiritual practices / techniques will be taught:

• Chakra Meditation / Chakra Dhyana // 30 minutes
• Kundalini and Divine energy Pranayama ratio 8-16-8-16 with mudras
• Silent meditation
• Mantra meditation
• Kundalini meditation Om Namah Shivaya
• Raja Yoga Pranayama / Kundalini meditation the 9 mudras // 30 minutes
• Kundalini breath ration 1:0:2:0 ujjayi kriya

Explanation on: Who give it and what purpose?

• Diksha / deeksha
• Shaktipati
• Kundalini activation
• Energy dynamic of enlightened masters

Energy Exchange: RM200

Duration: 3 hours

Book your seats now! Call Lightworks at 03-21432966 or email contact@lightworks.com.my

Picture and workshop explanation taken from Lightworks.